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27) I can yell at you, be mad at you, say pretend I hate you, but no body in the whole world, cares about you more than me. 28) Just because I don't pick up the phone on the first ring, doesn't mean I wasn't waiting by the phone. 29) I like this kid a lot more than I thought I did. I've already met the best of the best, but chances are there is still room left in my heart for more friends. 30) I agree your friends should always come first but real friends would never make you choose. 31) It's not that. "Oh my god, he's so cute", don't like him in a week, kind of love. It was a butterflies in my stomach, sweaty hands, can't get my words out straight, kind of love. 32) Nobody will ever like you as much as I did because nobody would ever waste their time on someone like you like I did. 33) I looked him in the eye and told him to take it Or leave it. I don't care but my heart was whispering take it the entire time. 34) You'll never know what it feels like to get up if you have never fallen down. 35) We fall for men, who give us pretty words and false hopes. 36) Even in 10 years, 20 men later, I'll still have something for you. because some things never change. 37) I am so frustrated with him right now, he knows. he knows how much I like him, he knows I'd do anything just to keep him around. but I'm beginning to stand up for myself & learning, just because I want something doesn't always mean I need it. I might get hurt in the process of driffing from him, but I'm saving myself from the hurt I will be feeling when he leaves me again . I'm becoming the person I always thought I could be. 38) & sometimes I just miss that sweet kid that I fell in love with. 39) It's not officially summer until you forget what day of the week it is. 40) It's like I want to tell you but I don't want you to know. 41) eat candy, walk the mall. try new things. make people happy. spend time with all your friends love someone. lose someone. go to the movies. fly a kite. win a fight. enjoy it while it lasts. live life to the fullest. have a blast. 42) The truth is I've been lied to so many times, I know I come second best to you. I'm not the one you think of & I'm sure as hell not the one you need. so why do you hold on to me? You're making things worse. You're the only thing I have. but to you I'm just the woman you've got cause you can't have the woman you once had. She's your everything while I'm just here. You close your eyes when you look at me to pretend you care. I'm not stupid; I see it. but my heart just never wants to believe it. So go ahead; tell me another lie. Whisper in my ear & tell me how much you pretend to love me. tell me how much you wish I was her. 43) Rumors are vicious. talk is cheap. words are malicious, secrets you should keep. gossip is fake & will make the deepest cut. So learn from the past & keep your mouth shut. 44) Don't find love. let it find you. that's why they call it falling in love. because you don't force yourself to. You just FALL. 45) I'm not afraid to fall, it means I climbed too high. That shows that I at least tried. 46) I guess I've realized that I don't have you to myself anymore--that you truly are gone. I guess I'll just have to accept it and try to move on, but if I had one wish, I would wish for things to go back to how they used to be; when you loved me & only me. ................................TO BE CONTINUED
13) think of how different it would be if you never met the one person who changed everything. 14) Sometimes it's easier to act like you don't care than to admit that it's killing you. 15) I was amazed that they had so much to talk about from the second they saw each other, there was constant laughing, sarcasm and commentary: something connecting them that pulled each other together with each thought spoken. yheir words, like the music had the potential to be endless. 16) Not knowing you're pretty is beauty, being completely insane is better then boring & being in love with someone but not telling them is just stupid. 17) I'd love to think you're different from all the rest. but deep down inside I know your not. 18) He's just a man who doesn't know what's in front of him. & she's just a woman who never learned how to let go. 19) I'm scared to death to find out what you think of me and maybe I'm just scared to face the things I feel. It's just easier to walk away from everything. 20) Don't look for the man who can be the best boyfriend. look for the man who can be your best friend. 21) It's not until I came back here, that I realized what this summer meant, how much I had grown up and how hard it's going to be to go back to people who don't know me anymore. 22) When I said I'd hit that, I meant with a car. 23) You can't stay mad at someone who makes you laugh. 24) Love should never be a secret, if you keep something as complicated as love stored up inside. it could make you sick. 25) Maybe sometimes you have to stop waiting for someone to come doing and fix what's wrong, maybe you have to stop feeling sorry for yourself, and realize that you're the only one with the answer. 26) I guess everyone has their reasons for keeping people away; and instinct to protect yourself from getting hurt. It's part of human nature.. ..........to be continued
As promised last time, for every comment I would put 10 quotes.... huge update and a lot for me to do....... hope I get comments on this post.... Enjoy and comment!!! 1) A very simple concept is that pain is the body's way of letting it know something's wrong. If we couldn't feel pain, our hand could burn to a crisp and we'd never know. So pain is a good thing. it let's us know that something needs to change, Or we'll keep hurting. 2) Some people stick around because they've seen the whole story so they appreciate you a lot more. the new kids, they don't hang around. 3) I'm so sick of immaturity. name calling of labels, of gossip. It doesn't even make sense anymore & I find myself being nice to people that I just want to strangle. 4) So, tell me what's it going to take for a woman like me to be with a guy like you. 5) I'm not even gonna get mad anymore. I just gotta learn to expect the lowest from the people I thought the highest of. 6) I love the way we can talk about anything and still never get bored because we're together and that's all that matters. 7) Summer Guy-- Even if he leaves again, he'll be back. Because he never really left me anyway. He's my summer guy. And summer guys are the only thing certain. You can trust that they'll always be back. Because they loved you in the time when you were most free. 8) I want a man who would hold my hand in line at the mall & make all the women jealous, I want someone who would sing to me at random moments. Someone who is more goofy than romantic. A man who.....d throw stuffed animals at me when I'm acting dumb. Someone who'd bet me kisses that he could beat me at all the old playstation games & then let me win. A guy who....d make fun of me just to hear my laugh. He'd play with my hair all the time & surprise me with 10,ooo dollars rings. Someone who I could share lollipops with & lay on a blanket with to count the stars. We'd buy tons of disposable cameras to take the silliest pictures of each other in the house. But mostly. someone who would never break my heart, He would just always make me 'SMILE'. 9) I hate the way you can push me to the limits with the things you do & then you know just the right time to say something sweet to make me fall for you all over again. 10) Would it matter to you if I was ugly Or beautiful, fat Or skinny, outgoing Or shy. a freak Or a loser? Would it matter to you if I was anything but what I am? Or could you love me for just me? 11) It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives. 12) don't get attached. you know better than anyone what happens when you get attached. ...........to be continued
Growing up sucks, Not all kisses are magic. And most people's do not "live up to your expextations", but there are those times when "everything". I mean love, romance, relationships, it all falls together perfectly and it's "incredible" It's those moments. No matter how "depressingly few and far between" That make growing up "worth it". Sometimes you need a "second chance". Because you weren't quite ready for your first. When you grow up, falling in "love" becomes more about finding someone whose "strengths" match your weaknesses. Who you can spend "Sunday night" with. Who you don't mind "being with every night". Chemistry can be a good and bad thing. Chemistry is good when you make "love" with it. Chemistry is "bad" when you make crack with it. All of us are living in the gutter, but some us are "looking" up at the stars. I believe in love & arguing. In "smiling" until your "cheeks hurt" & laughing until you cry. I believe in "being told" you're great. 'Dancing in the rain & miracles'. I believe in "second chances", even when you've "completely" screwed up. Go for the happy endings because life doesn't have any sequels. You will "always" be a part of my life. A happy "memory", a good "laugh", a tear Or two, I won't forget 'You'. Life is sometimes "little" pictures. You kind of "flash back" to those moments, and in all those moments, You think about the people you were with. The "music you were listening to", and "that feeling comes back". I am very "interested" and "fascinated" by how everyone "loves" each other, but "no one really likes each other". The Perks of Being a Wallflower. I want to be the lyrics that get stuck in your head all day. And you can't help but just "yelling" and "singing" them out loud; out of key and out of beat. Sometimes, I hope we're still friends when I get married. I hope that I'll invite you to the wedding, "and you'll come". You'll see me with a guy who treats me right and loves me more than himself. You'll see "all" that you could've had. And you'd "regret" letting me go. But the thing that I want you to see the most is that I survived without you. 
What sets us differently from other created beings is our ability to reminisce Or think back in time. There are just so much menories that we can draw from even our remotest past. Memories of our parents, our brothers and sisters when we were young, friends of long ago--oh, there are just so many things stored in the deep recesses of our mind wanting to go out into the open. And when the floodgates of memory are finally opened, there is nothing to prevent the flow of reminiscences. One source that brings about rich panorama of memories is the family album. Firstly, there's the wedding album. In still shots, one could see the mixed emotions on the faces of both the bride and the groom. Happy? Sad? Uncertainties? Anxieties and anticipations? Anyway all marriages are done on earth, but whether such union shall become heavenly Or otherwise depends upon the married couple. One thing is sure though, there is ample time for both of them to learn how to adjust to each other, Precisely, for it's only been quite sometime that the two have been together so as to know each other very well. Nonetheless, marriage is a lifetime commitment that should be predicated in love. Your first day together as husband and wife, Or even the preparation stage prior to your wedding is worth reminiscing. Then there's the first baby album. How you both exude an aura of joy at the smile of your first born. Then your child's antics are almost always recorded in a somewhat unending fashion. Her Or His first birthday. Her/his first day in school. A bruised finger. A runny nose. Oh!!! You run out of fingers counting everything that pertains to your child. And monitoring the growth Or progress of the child is a source of pride all captured in the album. And this goes to the next child. And to the next. Memories of the growing children are truly something to cherish as they shall not be around forever. Of course, one can bring along a picture of each of your children and your wife/husband in your wallet. Opening the wallet is sure to evoke some valuable memories, telling us to reminisce.
But the different between primal mating rituals and falling in love is quite apparent to me: unlike mating instincts, the feeling of love did not arise 'for the evolutionary purpose of promoting reproduction. If anything, love is counter evolutionary because it thwarts promiscuity, which, in turn, minimizes reproduction.' Love is an emotion, and emotions did not arise for mating purpose. Humans evolved to be emotional creatures for the purpose of banding together. Emotions undeniably create a sense of attachment between humans, which cause them to assemble together in this battle of the "survival of the fittest". Assemblage provides a species with a multitude of advantages, such as strength in numbers. Perhaps this is were the feeling of love comes from. Perhaps not. Either way, it is ridiculous to make the claim that we love for the sake of reproducing. Then again, if humans originally loved (Or at least felt emotions which evolved into love) for the sake of assembling and maintaining survival, and survival is essential for us to reproduce, then could one make the claim that love's indirect, although function, is to preserve reproduction? It seems as if the scientist's argument has to make so many links and jumps at this point that it lacks credibility, at least in my eyes. One could, as an analogy, make the claim that the big bang indirectly caused me to spill coffee on my T-shirt yesterday, when really we ought to attribute my T-shirt's coffee stain to my clumsiness. Of course, the scientists are only drawing two rather simple links. Perhaps my big--bang example is not analogous. Perhaps it is. Perhaps I don't care anymore. Okay, regardless of where you personally think love's origins lie, I hope that both you and I can agree with the following piece of information. Love has undeniably evolved to something much more intricate and meaningful than what it used to be. We no longer need love to survive Or reproduce in today's civilized world, but we continue to value it anyway. Can scientists please, at the very least, grant me that? If not, what is a poor hopeless romantic such as myself to do? ~~~~THE END~~~~
Every now and then, a girl may come across a dominant male who possesses the qualities of a nice guy, but only rarely, and he would likely be unavailable to date. "Nice guys" are a passive group who value above primitive fulfillment. In that sense, they are more socially developed than dominant males. The unfortunate reality is that they are too ahead of their time for their own good--while a girl may claim to crave romance and happily ever afters, the truth of the matter is that more often than not, she would prefer fornicating with a promiscuous jock over holding hands and stargazing with a soft--hearted intellectual. Of course, "nice guys" are not the only victims worthy of mentioning. There are plenty of "nice girls" who suffer from the inability to find males who loves them beyond their genitalia. My heart goes out to them. Society increasingly values love as time progresses and humanity evolves and develops. It will take thousands, if not millions of years for humanity to strip itself free from the bounds of primitivism and accept love as the sole embodiment of relationships. Oh, if only I were born a million years from now........ There is one last concern that I will briefly address. A common belief among the scientific community holds that love is a reproductive catalyst--that is, it's primary function is to draw couples together so they can fornicate, reproduce, and ultimately aid in prolonging the survival of the human race. This argument is unfounded. While love and sex are correlated, sex's existence is not dependent on the existence of love. In the other words, there exists correlation between love and sex, but there is no causal link. Before humans ever felt emotions, we certainly engaged in fornication. A member of the scientific community may inquire, then, that every species has developed it's own new method of drawing it's males and females together to reproduce, and love just so happens to be the (admittedly complex) mating ritual of humans right now, even if it didn't exist before. By analogy, male peacocks put their magnificent assortment of colorful feathers on display for the purpose of attracting females. Grasshoppers perform a repertoire of mating songs whenever they are struck with the "urge to merge". Surely, grasshoppers fornicated before they were able to chirp and peacocks reproduced before they had feathers. Even still, these mating rituals are the cause of mating right now, just as love is the current cause of human reproduction. .....................TO BE CONTINUED
I see traces of these primitive mating habits in human activity every day. Heterosexual men yearn to fornicate with nearly everything that walks on two legs and is bestowed with a vagina. The social phenomenon of being a so--called "pimp" is representative of the male's willingness to fornicate with as many women as he possibly can. This is not only scientifically proven; it is also known as a matter of common sense. Girls/women tend to put on this whole "you can look but you can't touch" aura, which is a method of weeding out beta males who are unwilling to "dominate" and "override" said aura (in common terms we refer to this as 'making a move'). Additionally, a girl's lack of promiscuity can be explained by her evolutionary need to pursue one boy who, in her eyes, is the most powerful male she can get her hands on. Today, the so--called "power" women seek to find in men is not limited to physical dominance. Women are attracted to high social standing, which explains why plenty of young girls hunger to settle down with established, rich old men. A 70-year-old millionaire can make a girl feel more protected than a 19-year-old stud such as a boy because financial stability is a fundamental ingredient of success in today's world. Traces of primitive sexuality lie within us all. Sure, some have the ability to completely control their primordial desires and remain loyal to one partner (which society views in a positive light), but these people are merely putting a cap on their instinctual wants. Although dormant, their primitive desires are still present. And this is only a small fraction of the population I refer to--most are prone to give in to the need to spread the seed. It seems as if society has struggled to release itself from the grasps of sexual primitivism. This explains, for example, why most consider sex, Or at least promiscuity, to be taboo. So there is clearly a socially constructed force acting to counter primitive instinct. A prime example is "Love". It is important for couples to "emotionally connect" at to fulfill each other romantically. This does not deny that sexual fulfillment it is also integral to the health of any relationship. From what I can tell, a variety of couples have differing standards of what is required to remantically and sexually fulfill each other. Some primarily value love while others prefer to spend the majority of their relationships embracing primal instincts. Most balance the two. So what if a girl feels, for whatever reason, that she is in love with a boy who lacks dominance? Then we've got problems. A girl finds herself craving this boy because, say, she emotionally connects with him. Despite her adoration for this boy, however, she will be unwilling, almost unable to give herself up to him. Until the boy decides to 'man up", there is very little chance that she will ever be intimate with him. I explained this theory to a girl (space) friend who is very close to me. I was previously romantically involved with her. Her response to my theory went as follow: "Well, I never felt like you protected me, although I still wanted you. Doesn't that prove your theory wrong"? I can see where the statement is coming from. 
Alright, I am beginning to sound like a bitter, decrepit man who has yet to find true love at the age of seventy--seven. Of course we have all been deceived by love facades, but that does not deny love's existence. Even if I cannot be sure that a specific person is truly in love. I am incorrigible about knowing that love exists in many of us, including myself. Humans have drawn up the idea of love for centuries. Love has received so much attention that it must have come from somewhere. Nothing comes from nothing (except nothing). Moreover, love facades are dependent on the existence of love. To make myself clear, I will draw an analogy between a love facade and a happiness was. I could never know what happiness was unless I experienced some of happiness, Or at least witnessed true happiness in somebody else. I was lastly address boyfriends who write poetry for girls in hopes of attaining sex and girls who only keep relationships alive for the novelty of having boyfriends. It is quite obvious to me that these people are not in love with whomever they are dating. They are pretending to be in love for selfish reasons. I suppose, then, that my definition of love is complete as follows: Love is an extremely good, "unselfish" feeling caused by a significant other. Now that I have finally drawn up a reasonable definition of love, and since I have finally proven that love exists, I will delve even deeper into the never--ending whirlpool of contemplative thought. I have always wondered why people feel the need to love when it quite evidently comes at the expense of their primordial desires. Our chemical makeup is not that far off from monkeys; it is well known that human DNA is ninety--eight percent compatible with that of primates. I am certain that monkeys and chimpanzees do not have the emotional capacity to experience love--they are more concerned with fulfilling their mating needs. The male craves to "spread the seed" while the female dedicates her time to choosing which male she will offer herself to. The female tends to select the most powerful, dominant male she can find. In exchange for an amazing orgasm, the dominant male offers the female his protection, which dramatically increases the female's chances of surviving and successfully raising an offspring. The female's breeding selectivity also plays a critical role in maintaining a species survival. If dominant males are the only primates reproducing, then females will only birth dominant offspring, which retains the relative dominance of the species as a whole. ................................to be continued
This concern that Love is not cause me to question my definition in the least bit. It is obvious that love is not solely comprised of lust--although I believe lust is a necessary component of love. If a significant other fulfills me in sexual and non--sexual ways, then I can be sure that I am in love with him. It is important to note that sexual fulfillment does not necessarily include fornication--everybody has his Or her own standard of sexual satisfaction. "Likewise, people have different standards non--sexual fulfillment" You might inquire, then, in response to the preceding thought: "Where do we draw the line? If a significant other makes me feel extremely good in a way that we consider juvenile, e.g. a boyfriend merely makes me feel accepted Or special, can we then say that I am in love? Does love not transcend shallowness? Or what if a man write poetry Or buys roses for a woman with the sole intention of keeping her around to satisfy his libido? Is this true love, Or is this nothing but a self--fulfilling prophecy? Is the girl who sneak out of her house to pay visit to her obusive boyfriend committing an act of true love, Or is she merely in love with the idea of having this man all to herself"? Admittedly, I feel as if my mind has stumbled upon a logical barrier. I am beginning to become a skeptic myself. How can I ever be sure that someone actually feels love for another? We have all witnessed multiple cases where someone convinced himself that he was in love when he was clearly not. I'm also sure that we have all been fooled by those who put on "love facades". I am referring to those who pretend to have a love interest in another, when, in actually, they merely fancy the idea of acceptance, sex, Or a high social status. It is always possible that any given person is deceiving me with a love facade--humans are not completely truthful, and I cannot perfect judgment on the intentions of others. Because it is always "possible" that I am deceived by a love facade, I have reason to "doubt" anyone who claims he is in love. Possibility and doubt are closely linked--for instance, if I say it is possible that it will rain tomorrow, I can then say it is doubtful (at least somewhat) that it will not rain tomorrow. Much the same, since it is possible that anyone is deceiving me with a love facade, it is always doubtful that any given person who claims to be in love is being truthful. .............to be continued
27) I can yell at you, be mad at you, say pretend I hate you, but no body in the whole world, cares about you more than me. 28) Just because I don't pick up the phone on the first ring, doesn't mean I wasn't waiting by the phone. 29) I like this kid a lot more than I thought I did. I've already met the best of the best, but chances are there is still room left in my heart for more friends. 30) I agree your friends should always come first but real friends would never make you choose. 31) It's not that. "Oh my god, he's so cute", don't like him in a week, kind of love. It was a butterflies in my stomach, sweaty hands, can't get my words out straight, kind of love. 32) Nobody will ever like you as much as I did because nobody would ever waste their time on someone like you like I did. 33) I looked him in the eye and told him to take it Or leave it. I don't care but my heart was whispering take it the entire time. 34) You'll never know what it feels like to get up if you have never fallen down. 35) We fall for men, who give us pretty words and false hopes. 36) Even in 10 years, 20 men later, I'll still have something for you. because some things never change. 37) I am so frustrated with him right now, he knows. he knows how much I like him, he knows I'd do anything just to keep him around. but I'm beginning to stand up for myself & learning, just because I want something doesn't always mean I need it. I might get hurt in the process of driffing from him, but I'm saving myself from the hurt I will be feeling when he leaves me again . I'm becoming the person I always thought I could be. 38) & sometimes I just miss that sweet kid that I fell in love with. 39) It's not officially summer until you forget what day of the week it is. 40) It's like I want to tell you but I don't want you to know. 41) eat candy, walk the mall. try new things. make people happy. spend time with all your friends love someone. lose someone. go to the movies. fly a kite. win a fight. enjoy it while it lasts. live life to the fullest. have a blast. 42) The truth is I've been lied to so many times, I know I come second best to you. I'm not the one you think of & I'm sure as hell not the one you need. so why do you hold on to me? You're making things worse. You're the only thing I have. but to you I'm just the woman you've got cause you can't have the woman you once had. She's your everything while I'm just here. You close your eyes when you look at me to pretend you care. I'm not stupid; I see it. but my heart just never wants to believe it. So go ahead; tell me another lie. Whisper in my ear & tell me how much you pretend to love me. tell me how much you wish I was her. 43) Rumors are vicious. talk is cheap. words are malicious, secrets you should keep. gossip is fake & will make the deepest cut. So learn from the past & keep your mouth shut. 44) Don't find love. let it find you. that's why they call it falling in love. because you don't force yourself to. You just FALL. 45) I'm not afraid to fall, it means I climbed too high. That shows that I at least tried. 46) I guess I've realized that I don't have you to myself anymore--that you truly are gone. I guess I'll just have to accept it and try to move on, but if I had one wish, I would wish for things to go back to how they used to be; when you loved me & only me. ................................TO BE CONTINUED
