Evil......

So I was thinkin about good and evil today. I never quite believed in either for a long time. I remember as a kid thinking that 'Christians' were made good and everyone else was sort of grey and could be bad. There were angels= absolute good, and demons= absolute evil. But growing up teaches you that things aren't always so clear. For example my father was a kindhearted person, he tried to help people and make them happy, for all I know.... he was the best person to me in the world. How could one guy be so 'evil' to some people and so wonderfully good to me? I have read many different theories I have read about holds the concept of "dark entities". These entities "chose" to "turn away" from g-d and live for themselves and now reincarnate continually in order to "destroy" good people. Many ideologies follow this logic...... that had people are actually lost souls that choose to be evil. I have trouble with this because doing evil for me is often an highly unplesant experience. Sure it has an immediate reward but the planning is stressful, the action is more stressful and then afterwards is a long period of guilt and fear followed by more stressful!!! I wouldn't go so far as to call myself a "good" person...... because I have my fair share of evil thoughts. But in my experience the fruition of said evil thoughts is so highly stressful and unplesant that it is never worth it. To believe that people run around being evil cause it's fun would mean believing that they simply don't experience worry Or stress about their actions. This leads me to believe that there is something fundamentally different between them and me inside. The further problem I have is that if this is true then it means a whole section of souls were just sort of set aside to be evil. And that seems cruel to me seeing as I do not know the mechanics of the election process with which first made said decision. The choice theory here also has a big flaw to me: If we were all created by g-d in the beginning, what possible motivation would say 1/3 of us have had to choose to become evil...... especially if no concept existed yet. Some theories suggest that in the beginning there was some sort of conflict and that souls chose sides in said conflict. The losing side ended up being doomed to be evil. ..........to be continued