{Poem} Where are you now!? (2)

Where the itch sleeps, Take away the skin so poison seeps, The wrong ingredient in my brain. That makes the beast keep wanting, Wanting, greedy, gluttonous thoughts. I won't think. instead I will eat my words. Choke on them, Muddle and mess them, Destroy and expel them. Goodbye emotion, I won't feel you, I won't be your slave because don't you see I can't stand you? I can't stand to see myself searching through the night......... candlelight, teeth gleam, smoke breath, glimmering. I ache for it, that's my true craving, I'm already grieving, bathing in the past. Melts me down to mud, I can't move that way, I stick and stain everything, And I forget CONCRETE I miss my light, my love, I'm afraid of tomorrow, I miss yesterday, Fear of sorrow propels me forward Into and through the new, the scary because if I don't there's no other way To see the day that hold you in it, Candle burning bright despite The bright sunlight glaring, And the big huge smiles we'll be wearing, That day........ Cliche: The day that you come home again.