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He's a bright spot in a fairly dark life right now. Whenever I hear from him, it makes things a little better, a little warmer, a little lighter. I feel like my old self. Like the woman I used to be before all the things that happened when people were supposed to be taking care of me when I was younger caught up with me. Before I nearly lost my mind. Before I almost completely lost my heart. He reminds me of everything I want to be, but which I always feel like I can't slow down enough to be......running from the things I know that I am not but which I am deeply afraid I will turn out to be. Everything was easier once. And brighter once. Better once. Thanks to those who came up to see me today. It meant a lot, though it probably seemed as if you benefited more from it than I did. Friendship can be like heart surgery. Sometimes it is healing, And sometimes it can almost kill you. I want to live again. I can feel it. The changes that I am going through are painful but ultimately good. I've spent my entire life trapped, having to be what other people needed me to be. I never became myself. Until now, And it's kind of beautiful. "If you want to make some funny photos, can go to this wesite~~~http://www.photofunia.com~~~ So easy to make