"I won't worry my life away"

For the first time in a long time I'm looking forward to living,I'm not a terribly suicidal person,although it has been a problem lately,laying and thinking about how much I'd rather be done with this place and be in Heaven.I'd sometimes give up a great life with laughter and love just to skip the pain.Now it's a little different.I just found someone to love,and it's amazing.There is someone who will never leave me,he promised and he knows what I feel.Not just knowing about it,but actually knows. I wanted to hold him while he confessed his weaknesses,but for some reason it made me even more attracted to him. I don't really want a dating-type relationship out of this,I'm just so happy knowing that I have something and for the first time in a long time I can look into the future and not be filled with dread and regret that I would have to live that long.And it's all his fault.