"It's All Clear Now"

Some people like others based on beauty,while others may prefer personality. Until now,I thought those were the only reasons for socially mingling with others people.Now I can see that those are simply the only reasons for liking another person.Liking someone and hanging out with them are two completely different things.Someone can socialize with another person he/she likes. And although one can like someone for personality,It's not even close to a guarantee.Almost as if unrivaled,beauty will always tower above personality.Yet no one has to like someone that they hang around-but they must have a reason.It's quite simple.Everything happens for a reason and everyone has a reason for actions they do,right? Here are the possible reasons that someone would socialize with another person without actually liking them:1)Money, 2)Particular Good(s), 3)Particular Service(s), So, what exactly is it that I have to ofter?What makes people want to hang around me? 1)Money, 2)Certain 'goods', 3)Transportation. It seems that if I didn't have a car and didn't have a job,then I'd be useless,No one would even bother knowing who I am. It appears as if no one can truly like me.As it should be,because I am not a good person.I simply do good things in hopes of countering all the bad things I've done or know that I'll do. Though this has to be equivalent exchange.I'm sure that I've done something horrible,something that is so vile that it cannot be forgiven. My punishment for this unseen infraction?A lifetime of pure,unadulterated loneliness spent realizing all truths,no matter how distressing.I must have done something to deserve this. And so,it is for this reason that I must accept my punishment with open,wide-spread arms. Love......It's an incredible feeling, a feeling that I know well;and while I love without condition,it may never be redeemed.As I'm serving my sentence on this earth,many people will surely claim to love in return.Though when it comes down to it.my life is damned to be devoid of empathy,care,and amity. What was once masked by a vague. understanding of the world is now as brilliant as crystal,I can see.It's all clear now..... But I never want to forget you nor that voice which gives me strength,that smile which makes me smile,or that compassion which brings me hope.