"My Soul Wanders"

I have a wandering soul,It grows restless with each passing day,I can't help but think of this life as a hole.I'm stuck in,and long to get away. My days are bleak and pointless,Its become easy to fall into a dark mood,Most things are now boring and joyless,Always getting yelled at for my solemn attitude.I feel as if my soul was swallowed by a black cloud.My heart hidden behind a wall of cold indifference,Always scared to voice my emotions out loud.And like so many before me tried,can I truly blame my parents?I feel like 'God' has forgotten me,Our relationship all but shattered,I used to pray and plea,But now my emotions are to scattered.For now my soul can't stop wandering,Searching for 'God's" lost light,And in my heart I feel a shuddering,As I lay trying to sleep at night.not very long or very good.but I do think its better than my others ones.let me know what you think, you know I live for your comments. The best way to make it through with hearts and wrists intact........It's hard to believe that my life's been turned upside down and backwords like this. It's hard to believe we could end up like this,It's hard to believe that we're here at this crossroad. It's hard to believe it's just me,waiting for some change.