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Today seems to make this new 'Blogger' completely pointless. I don't know if I was afraid Or confused (well.....yeah!) to say it. but I did. Not outloud, though on some level I wish I had. I'm not surre how I would've composed myself in that moment, my emotions all out of control, but I'm glad I said it anyway. Telling people how you feel about them puts you in a very vulnerable position. But I've always felt, that it a feeling was worth feeling, it's worth exploring, Or at the very least being honest about. He makes me smile. He makes me laugh. He puts me at ease. And he truly looks at me. It's a little awkward (the looking,) but when I started to look back, I received this sense of calm and security. And it was at that point I knew........ and though I "said" it earlier to you in some shape Or another. ..............For the past few weeks..... I've felt myself falling for you.... And what happens now is not that big of a deal anymore, if it's over then at least I won't regret being too afraid to say it...... And I think I know it has to be, have known that for a while, but.....I couldn't....... It's important for me that you do what makes you happy and makes the most sense...... and in another place in time, maybe what I saw making my heart happy would make sense. But..... I still regret nothing. I'm truly happy I met you, and in case I'm too hurt to ever say THIS (yet another thing)........thank you!!! Wow......... I have not been on here forever! As you can tell........ it's now senior year and I am LOVING it!!! It is the best year!!! I didn't fully commit to speech this year....... but it was nice not having to wake up at 4:30 every Sat morning. I'm excited for summer and some warm weather!!!!! I have really mixed emotions about working...... new job, new people they are all really exciting and scary at the same tiem........ but that is what life is all about!!! Well this is random but I'm excited about 'Blogger!!! What if everything around you, Isn't quite as it seems? What if all the world you think know, Is an elaborate dream? And if you look at your reflection, Is it all you want it to be?
Today seems to make this new 'Blogger' completely pointless. I don't know if I was afraid Or confused (well.....yeah!) to say it. but I did. Not outloud, though on some level I wish I had. I'm not surre how I would've composed myself in that moment, my emotions all out of control, but I'm glad I said it anyway. Telling people how you feel about them puts you in a very vulnerable position. But I've always felt, that it a feeling was worth feeling, it's worth exploring, Or at the very least being honest about. He makes me smile. He makes me laugh. He puts me at ease. And he truly looks at me. It's a little awkward (the looking,) but when I started to look back, I received this sense of calm and security. And it was at that point I knew........ and though I "said" it earlier to you in some shape Or another. ..............For the past few weeks..... I've felt myself falling for you.... And what happens now is not that big of a deal anymore, if it's over then at least I won't regret being too afraid to say it...... And I think I know it has to be, have known that for a while, but.....I couldn't....... It's important for me that you do what makes you happy and makes the most sense...... and in another place in time, maybe what I saw making my heart happy would make sense. But..... I still regret nothing. I'm truly happy I met you, and in case I'm too hurt to ever say THIS (yet another thing)........thank you!!! Wow......... I have not been on here forever! As you can tell........ it's now senior year and I am LOVING it!!! It is the best year!!! I didn't fully commit to speech this year....... but it was nice not having to wake up at 4:30 every Sat morning. I'm excited for summer and some warm weather!!!!! I have really mixed emotions about working...... new job, new people they are all really exciting and scary at the same tiem........ but that is what life is all about!!! Well this is random but I'm excited about 'Blogger!!! What if everything around you, Isn't quite as it seems? What if all the world you think know, Is an elaborate dream? And if you look at your reflection, Is it all you want it to be?
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