~~~Memory~~~

Do you ever with that you could freeze life? Do you ever wish that you could not just watch one moment over and over again, but re-live a moment permanently, never let it go? Do you ever wish that you didn't have to let your friends go? Driving. It always gets to me, especially when I realize it's the last time me and my friends will ever hang out all together-at least for a very long time. When the moment ends, that's it. It ends, You can pull it out of your memory storage 3 days, months, years ahead, but it won't be the same. It will only be a memory, it will only have some qualities to it, It won't contain every crisp detail; it won't contain the thoughts you had then. Every 3 minutes Or hours later, it's already fading away. The vivid detail is no longer vivid. Ah, the memory, What a cruel, strange place. Filing cabinents containing folders that have missing information. It was there once, but time eats away at the fragile wisps, That was today, I was able to have one last small moment with my friends Ah Ling, Cat, and Ray. I'll be able to see the first two again shortly; but Ray I won't have the chance to visit with for a long time yet. Ah, goodbyes, How sweet they can be; how cruel and destroying they can be. I wish I could just take that moment-- the moment of dead silence save the tune of "High School" blasting out of the stereo speakers. And, as Ah Ling put it (Or was it Ray? see how the memory fails given just 30 minutes?) how fitting since some of our best memories were made in "High School". Well, farewell to you three, We shall see each other again, I am sure of it. However, the circumstances won't be quite the same. But I'll never forget--Or, at least, I'll try never to forget. I know people say that change is good, but why is that? What's so wrong with consistancy? What's so wrong with a predicatable lifestyle? Sure, we can be free and random whenever we so choose to be, but why can't we just............