Friendship~its kind of amazing what little bit of action YOU. 1

It's kind of amazing what little bit of action you do can affect the "FUTURE". I mean, I obviously wouldn't have known the future anyway at that point in time, but since the present is still the future from the past, then it's easy to say if something I did caused this present to be what it is today. Did I lose you? It's alright if I did. I think I may have even confused myself there. You see back in highschool, I wasn't what you would call "popular". I had a handful of friends, some of them good friends, some of them acquaintances, and others just..... people I socialized with on a semi-daily basis, but nothing like a friend ought to be. I had this one particular friend who I considered my best friend, though, and upon finding each other again freshman year, our friendship remained solid for most, if not all, through highschool. She called us "homeys". That made me feel special. So it was cool to be her homey. I loved that. i found her on 'Facebook' earlier this year, and as expected, got a peek at how her life has turned out, Or whatever she chooses to share. It's always sad to do that, for me anyway. I see just where people went in life, how far they've gone, and while I can be happy for them, I feel sad for me. I've gone nowhere in life, and have obtained no one special along the way either. There's no new bundle of friends, no family to love and care for, no career to have that will get me places. After highschool, things dissipated in the friendship zone. Everyone went their separate ways, peoeple who meant nothing to me, and people who I thought would be my friends forever. All I know is, I never said goodbye to anyone who I thought were my friends, and it was because they all walked away from me to seek out the OTHER friends whose last name didn't begin with an "R" like mine and their own. But, I'm swaying off topic.... ......................to be continued